Wind of Change ...

I follow the Moskva
Down to Gorky Park
Listening to the wind of change
An August summer night
Soldiers passing by
Listening to the wind of change
The world is closing in
Did you ever think
That we could be so close, like brothers
The future's in the air
I can feel it everywhere
Blowing with the wind of change

Today was a very weird day for me, and..  all I could think of, was this old song of the Scorpions. I got some news today, not quite good, but if they are bad.. I don't know.. the time will show. But they turned my small world upside down again, once more. I felt most of the day like a small boat, dealing with too much wind, fighting with heeling and almost flipping .. and loosing balance.

To brighten my day, and to finally move her Nikki - a Shields Class Sailboat - Hera came up with the plan to sail the last Rainbow Sails Cruise we both missed out on. It was a welcoming of the new-old Galaxy, finally connecting Sailors Cove South with the Honah Lee - Islands.

Like Hera I took my Shields Class, and we made a little race of it. That and some training, cuz Hera had to learn how to deal with the boat. She learned fast and I am pretty sure she had a blast. I have to admit I had troubles to keep her balanced, maybe my missing balance effected my sailing skills today...

In Sailors Cove South we came into the pouring rain, it was gorgeous, it was cold and.. it felt like a wind of change. Maybe it is the fall season catching up with me. I am a summer person, I love heat and sun.. all of it. Getting into this rain... felt like a good-bye.. to the summer, to my old life..

How can you describe cold panic to someone who doesn't know real panic? I am asking myself this for a while now. It's like.. a cold fire.. inside.. eating.. destroying.. and leaving just ashes... and while ashes is nothing.. that's all you got to carry on.. somehow.. to survive.. to reach your goal.. no matter how simple it might look to anyone else.

But that's all about that song again. Wind of Change ... for me it's not just about change, but about the fight.. you have to carry on. It's living... >>The hardest thing in this world, is to live in it!<< a kind of cheesy quote of the TV-show Buffy, the vampire hunter.

Tho, I will try to do exactly that.. no matter how hard it seems. And I will carry on doing things I like and love, like this gorgeous boat. I made those textures, I made them.. I still can't believe it. I am so proud ... you can see - I am like cold and hot.. fire and ice... calm and uneasy .. all at the same time. Torn and.. whole.

I hope this wasn't too disturbing dear reader. I will say Good Night, Good Day, Good Bye.